I am so thankful that Forrest's PTSD isn't very bad anymore. That shit makes everyone crazy. Granted, his was never very bad because he didn't see too much action, so the problem has mainly been his anger and lack of patience. Before we met he did have a lot of guilt, which is still there to an extent. Guilt about not helping orphaned Iraqi children begging for food (he would see them while they were on their way out of camp, not a time that was ok to stop), guilt that fathers died and he, who at the time had nothing, survived. He was also suicidal and checked himself into a hospital in Portland.
But since we've been together things have been pretty good. His therapy also helps. Right now it seems like the biggest thing he needs to do is to stop putting so much pressure on himself. He always has a huge to-do list (don't we all?) and he feels like he has to get everything done as quickly as possible. I'm trying to get hits understand that it's ok to slow down, that even though we're having a baby in a few weeks there really is no deadline. We have an incredible life where we both get to be stay at home parents, we have the luxury of time that most people do not.
I'm part of a group on Facebook for wives of the Marines in Forrest's unit. It's a little weird since I've never met any of them. A lot of them became friends at the annual reunions and next year there are going to be events for the wives only. The few women I've talked to seem nice, but man, their lives are crazy. Their husbands have bad PTSD, which makes the women crazy as well. It seems like every time one of them posts something on the group page it's nothing but drama. Now one says she and her husband, who have 5 kids, are getting divorced. I can't even imagine what it must be like living their lives. The constant drunkenness, fighting, avoidance, the lack of communication, it's all way more than I could handle. There are times when I can barely handle my own husband, where I feel like I wouldn't have married him if I'd known exactly how things were going to be. (Of course, I'm sure a lot of people can say that, it's just part of being in a long term relationship, I think.) But dealing with what these other women do, I know I couldn't handle that, if only because it's not something I want my kids to grow up around.